update I guess?

 *strums guitar* it's been awhileee

anyway, not dead? Yay.
May not have a job in a month and a half which is
very much Not Yay. 
Long story short, got on to my boss's boss bad side and thus she threw me into a PIP in spite of performance improving because....why not 😐
So when I'm not trying to go above and beyond at work? I'm job hunting/applying....in a garbage job market.

So I'm basically in a Constant State of stressed, tired, and scared all the time. It's....not great.
I'm exhausted and just overall not great.
I promised my baby brother that if I wasn't going to be seeing a therapist that I would at least start journaling again...so here I am.

Still a fuck up. Whoo